News : Transgender Kid Suicide After Leaving A Tumblr Note
A 17 years old transgender from Ohio has died two days ago from what appears to be a suicide, leaving a note on her Tumblr account, blaming her religious parents for not accepting her gender identity.
Leelah Alcorn, born Joshua Ryan Alcorn was walking alone on Interstate 71, when she was hit by a truck at 2:30 a.m. December 28. The news channel refer to Alcorn as a male but she was always blogging on her Tumblr account “Lazer Princess” and living a sa trans teen.
It is on that Tumblr account that she left this very sad note :
If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.
Please don’t be sad, it’s for the better. The life I would’ve lived isn’t worth living in… because I’m transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally “boyish” things to try to fit in.
When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn’t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don’t tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don’t ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won’t do anything but make them hate them self. That’s exactly what it did to me.
My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.
When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn’t receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.
After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like shit because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided I’ve had enough. I’m never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I’m never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I’m never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I’m never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I’m never going to find a man who loves me. I’m never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There’s no winning. There’s no way out. I’m sad enough already, I don’t need my life to get any worse. People say “it gets better” but that isn’t true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.
That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don’t give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say “that’s fucked up” and fix it. Fix society. Please.
I just want to say that this news made me cry a lot this morning. I was raised in a religious family as well, so I related a lot with her story. I was judge a lot when I was a kid : “Too gay” , “too feminine”, “too this or that” , “you’re going to hell because you’re gay” etc… I created a big shield because of that to look tough and hide…never was “brave” or “game” enough to do what she did though. Very sad that years later, kids are still bullied for things like that… religions or opinions. May she rest in peace 🙁
Dave
(Lazer Princess scheduled a post that just appeared on her Tumblr page few hours ago :
And now for my sorry notes to some people I knew…
Amanda: You are going to have such a wonderful life. You are the most talented and pretty little girl I’ve ever met and I love you so much, Amanda. Please don’t be sad. I’m going to miss you so very much. I love you.
Tiffany: We haven’t talked much recently since we’re both so busy but I’m so happy you’re my sister. You are so courageous and determined to achieve what you want, you can accomplish anything. I love you.?
Justin: We’ve been jerks to each other a lot recently but I really do love you. You get on my nerves almost all the time but no matter what a part of me will always love you. Sorry for picking on you so much when we were kids.
Rylan: I’m so sorry I’m never there for you. I love you so much.
Abby: Thank you for dealing with my pathetic problems, all I did was make your life harder and I’m sorry.
Mom and Dad: Fuck you. You can’t just control other people like that. That’s messed up.
I don’t really feel the need to apologize to anyone else… odds are you didn’t give a shit about me and if you do, you did something that made me feel like shit and you don’t deserve an apology.
Also, anyone who says something like “I wish I got to know him better” or “I wish I treated him better” gets a punch in the nose. )
So sad. I happen to be blessed with a family(large) that accepts me for who I am. No matter who/what you are, please stay strong. There is so much to offer in life!!!
I almost teared up reading this. May you rest in peace. I believe in rebirth so I pray that you are able to come back as the girl you should have been.
What a sad thing for anyone to go through. I’ve always believed that no one has a right to treat or judge others in a negative way. As for those so-called Christians, you will be judged on the day you stand before God. Let people live their lives and stop thinking your thoughts are the only ones that count.
SUCH A SAD MISCONCEPTION THAT TRANSGENDERS GET MORE RESPECT AFTER TRANSITIONING
SO LITTLE RESPECT AND MUCH LESS LOVE IN THE WORLD. THEY SAY GOD IS LOVE AND WE NEED TO LOVE OURSELVES BEFORE WE CAN LOVE ANOTHER WE ALL NEED TO OPEN OUR HEARTS ACCEPT OURSELVES AS DIFFICULT AS IT MAY BE. TOLERATE DIFFERENCES THATS WHAT MAKES THIS WORLD SUCH A WONDERFUL PLACE
I feel bad that this person had to kill herself over negativity of others mostly her parents. its a shame and I feel horrified that gays and lesbians are committing suicide for not being accepted.
Very sad
Sorry to hear such sadness. With that said I am really confused about being Christian and gay, the two do not go together. Those that say they were brought up in a Christian home didn’t get the fact the bible is against being gay. It tells you that no man should lie with another man….period. So drop the pretention that you are gay and a Christian, doesn’t add up.
As for this young person his parents weren’t true Christians either…They tried to have their son be as he was born…a son. But they forgot the love part…the only part that could have saved him. They were too selfish to be a Christian plain and simple.
I am truly sad to have heard this young person felt so alone, even unloved. He got to the point that death was the best choice?
How sad is it to read of such a young life ending before her time.
Having read Leelah Alcorn / Joshua Ryan Alcorn note she left behind broke my heart. I was raised in a religious Hispanic family I can related in some ways. but, can not envision in the pain of her heart and mind she was in before she left this world
May she come to know peace and rest from the troubles of the world.
May the spirit of Love, Warmth, Compassion from those who read her story surround her.
So sad. So young and to have to lived a life of hate, confusion, and depression. I wish I could have known and helped in some way. It’s such a tragedy. My sadness is only surpassed by my anger of religious fundamentalists such as her parents and the totally unintelligent, unprofessional, and quite frankly I will say it- “EVIL” so called “christian therapist/s” who should be locked up and sent to prison along with her mother and father for their delusional state of being. -EVIL narcissistic psychopaths claiming an invisible delusional god. What is wrong with our society and where has our humanity gone?
I offer a Vulcan prayer. May in death you find the peace that illuded you in life.
(May you rest in peace god loves you as you are.)
so very sad…a heartfelt coming out and not quite of age story by a young person hurting…and from what i read very smart and probably very talented…such a waste of a young life…wow…i encourage young people to reach out no matter what their plight…being gay/transgender aren’t the only horrors with youth…as adult who’ve made it no matter how screwed up we might be…parents aren’t always understanding, loving or humane…we need to reach out to these kids and let them know that nothing, nothing is worth taking your life…learn to love yourself, live and aspire to do great things…there is no telling what this young soul could have contributed to humanity…RIP sweet child…
How offensive that you would blame the parents and thier religion? He killed himself. Its his responsibility. What you want to outlaw religion now?
What a wicked person for killing himself
its a terrible sad song that a star so bright so young that would do something so tragic it breaks my heart and i truly hope that she will end up in a far better place than here .where i grew up there was a gay teen that hung himself not for the same reason but the end results was still the same i was sad for him i knew him somewat i tried to help him an he refused . there should have been no reason why she killed herself if her parents would have opened their eyes an accepted her for who she was not wat they wanted her to be this would not have happened its a total shame that it takes a tragedy for parents to realize they were so wrong and now its to late theres no going back .. so long little angel may god bless you an keep you in his loving embrace amen
This truly breaks my heart. Lazer Princess may you finally have the PEACE you’re looking for. I am sure those you left here will miss you terribly.
My Mom and her family are Ohioians. I understand that “Christian” belief and they are total BS!
May you find the Light, Lazer! RIP!
This breaks my heart. We as adults complain about our minor, petty problems. Once you read something like this and know that this sweet kid is dead, it really should make the rest of us think that we aren’t that bad off. He was in a lot of emotional pain. RIP.
Selfish act
I have never felt compelled to comment on anything on these blogs but this has gotten me. First off this is a very personal note that does not belong here. Secondly I feel terrible for the family and friends suffering as a result of this loss. BUT, i think the parents shouldnt be faulted for not consenting to the transitioning therapy and I feel truly sorry for the parents.
Its sad just too sad. Rest in peace kid, may your next life be embraced by simple and open minded and kind hearted and understanding people. A planet that you can live free of judgment. And given respect. Fuck religion, religion is nothing more than the selfishness of human being to have power over another. may you may you rest in peace.
Leelah,
I wish you peace wherever your soul may take you and saddened by how your short and difficult your life was on this plane of existence. Your story will always be in my memories and will remind me on how difficult life in the LGBT can be.
If you believe you were born the wrong sex, you are mentally ill. Furthermore, your neurosis should not be encouraged.
This little boy didn’t kill himself because his parents didn’t love him, he killed himself because he was a selfish, immature brat who realized he wasn’t going to get his way. So, to punish his parents, he offed himself.
Well, guess what, children… life is hard for most people, not just for boys who want to be girls!
Here’s a fun fact: Did you know that most so-called trans people look down on homosexuals? They actually believe are straight and WE are freaks!
Next : Are u ok man? Your comment makes me sick…
This is sad. Our GLBT community is so divided with age, sexual preference, ect. We failed to reach out & support our younger generations. I’m sure we all remember how hard it is to feel accepted for who we are. My heart goes out to her & others like her. There are websites & forums to help with identity questions.
It’s ok Leelah. I’ll see you soon.
I am not sure anyone needs to be judging anyone else. Clearly we don’t have all the facts. I understand the parents decision to wait as a 16 year old does not understand the ramifications involved. We also do not know if there was any abuse (known or other wise), so it is very difficult to take any sides. You can be a Christian and be gay, lesbian, trans or whatever. It is a sin but so is lying. God does not judge, people do. It is a shame that a life was taken. Period. If this were your child, what would you do? And for the record all Christian councilors cannot be grouped together and be labeled negatively. There are some great people out there who spend their lives helping troubled youth, a job far more difficult than most people realize. This is a sad story that I didn’t enjoy reading, but it does show how we need to be involved with youth and be accepting.
As a masculine gay identified man in his late 50’s, I began speaking with a transgendered man online nearly a year ago. What began as a simple hello, has brought me to a point of profound love, respect and understanding which I never believed possible. What brought Leelah to feel he was born in the wrong body? Why not you? Why not me? I don’t believe any of us has the right to criticize or ridicule. But to go through the profound pain of emotional ridicule day in and day out would cause even a strong god-loving man (or woman) to take his or her own life. Shame on you who have criticized him for taking his life; may you NEVER be in his shoes. You are NOT now and never will be God. Rest in Peace.
David
First off this story absolutely breaks my heart! I don’t personally no any transgenders, but that doesn’t mean I don’t hurt for this child and her family.
Secondly, everyone criticizing Christians for her suicide is despicable! Her suicide was as a result of a very small segment of the Christian religion! Not all Christians are as judgmental as everyone says we are! There are some who are, just as there are some very judgmental gay people! Most Christians, myself included, are very loving people, just as our religion calls us to be!
To everyone struggling with suicidal thoughts, just remember it does get better!
I believe he/she was strong-minded, yet young and naïve. It’s a shame that she just did not wait longer until she had an independent place to think about her life and what she wanted as opposed to what others wanted. Perhaps she could have realized she was not so bad-off as she was thinking. I have been through disabling health for 5 years, to the point of depression and I know how agonizing it can be to be alone with a physiological condition. However, waiting things out is sometimes the only answer.
I’m very say..i will say a prayer tonight..rest in peace
How sad such a young life was so tragically cut short because of feelings of torment and despair. Shame on those of you who blame her and call her a coward and a sinner. She could be your sibling or relative. She was still so young and trying to figure out how to cope with her feelings and transition to the person she wants to be. Some of us are not as strong as others. May she rest in peace.
My teen goddaughter is now transitioning into my teen godson. His parents, grandparents, friends and neighbors are all supportive. There are indeed tolerant, compassionate people who are supporting transgendered individuals and those transitioning.
Well, she certainly got the last word.
While suicide is usually a permanent solution to a temporary problem, those who take their own lives don’t see it that way, do they? In this case, Leelah’s pain was too real. I’m glad she got to have the last word with regard to those who caused her such pain–especially her parents–while wishing she had hung in there and found peace among the living. She could have; many others have.
I would love to read her parents’ last words on this following the belated release of her final post.
I hope this story is published far and wide so that religious bigots–especially parents–can learn what can happen when THEY go too far. It would be Leelah’s legacy if even one gay or transgendered kid’s parents came around to some level of tolerance if not outright support toward their “different” child.
George… ignorant much?!
It is truly amazing how by the book most and yes MOST Christians are as they say they are follow God and Jesus. When all stories and teach of Jesus and God are non-bias, non-judgmental, ALL-caring, ALL-Loving and ALL-FORGIVING he was. I take it today’s Christians just throw those teachings and traits OUT THE WINDOW and write their own rules.
Leelah may God and Jesus lay your soul to rest in their arms.
Rest in peace,
Michael
Johann people who commit suicide aren’t doing it to be selfish, they feel trapped with no way out. It is ignorant to believe they are benefiting from ending their lives in an act of selfishness.
Poor kid. Tragic. So sad he was not able to accept his own maleness and that it led to this self-destructive act. Poor parents, too.
I can understand his/her feelings I was on the brink of killing myself earlier this year, thank my idea of god that I reached out to a few gay friends that I had and they took me by the arms and pulled me back from the edge of disaster. There are a few posters here that seem like ASSHOLES (not the good kind) by there comments, my pain was caused by my own stupidity, I outed myself to co-workers friends and some family members.on Labor Day Monday the next day the shit started at work and it got bad in the following weeks, family and friends avoided me for awhile, but things at work calmed down and it became old news and only a few that don’t matter to me continue to make comments I don’t say anything back because that would embolden them to push it farther. as time has passed everybody has realized i’m the same guy I was except I prefer men and have since 2009. as long as I show up for work in work clothes and not a dress I don’t see any further problems there most of my family that found out are ok with my choices I think they guessed last year when my lover at the time went boating with them and they saw the way we looked at each other, I just confirmed their guesses and the few true friends are still friends but we will never be as close as we once were. we used to get drunk and I’d stay over at their places, after that day those invites dried up, and I’m ok with that, my lover then has moved on and so have I hopefully to a hotter honest loyal guy. It has not been easy, but believe me when I say I understand her/his pain…… DEAN
I am a bisexual preacher, married with kids, I have been this way since a child, Regardless of my sexual orientation I have found that God blesses me and loves me for me. Those so callex Christians are so full of it…God made us the way we are and he loves us in spite of our sexual preference. The Bible plainly states that ALL humans fall short of His Glory,if your not struggling.with this, your struggling with that! Don’t believe people believe Jesus He is love, He loves All….
This is so sad that someone would be pushed to this….Dont ever let people beat you down for who you are, you were created by the same God that created them!!!…..SOOOOO SAD
It’s sad that someone killed themself. Especially someone so young.
But this highlights that transgender people are mentally disabled. They all are.
This guy in particular was a feminine gay man who couldn’t accept that’s what he was. He wasn’t a woman; he was a feminine gay man.
His religious parents situation certainly made matters worse. But I guarantee if he were raised by sociall liberal, more accepting family, he would have grown up as a gay man, not a transgender woman.
Would he have accepted who he truely was, and moved out of the Bible town he lived in, into a bigger city, he would have found plenty of men eilling to date a femnine man as himself.
Ask any transgender their story. None of them come from happy homes, and all of them are mentally ill. It’s the sad truth.
Yes this suicide is sad, as they all are, but it’s definitely a suicide for attention. He definitely went about this the wrong way.
Mental illness.has nothing to do with sexuality. Unless the whole gay community wants to label homosexuality as a disease…
God doesn’t make mistakes but we live in a fallen imperfect world. Look around and see that not everyone experiences life the same. There are the blind, the deaf, the mentally ill, the mentally slow, along with less severe physical and mental differences .. A crooked foot or ear or an extra tooth or having both sets of genitals, or dyslexia. Are any of these counted among the evil or immoral? How about being left handed? We have different color skin and different shapes. We must accept one another and love one another. This is a horrible tragedy. I am outraged that this still happens in a so called educated and civilized society . How much more outraged God must be . Especially because of the people calling themselves His followers projecting such ignorance and hate . This should be on every news station in the country. it’s time to have a national conversation and end the ignorance and hate once and for all. Where are our spiritual leaders and medical leaders? Stand up now
My name is Mesha I’m a Transgender Female this is HEARTBREAKING a loss of one LGBT voice silenced from Any form of HATE NEGLECT OR ABUSE IS DEVASTATING!I’m from a small town in Louisiana and its the same way here no matter how old you get are how SUCCESSFUL U BECOME those UNJUST words still FOLLOW you!When people through hurtful words at u an it’s FAMILY u can try to tune out your peers but with family members it’s a different story.So please take this story of our SISTERS story read above and embrace us don’t try and CHANGE us because CHANGE is what u get from a$1.00 not what u get from a PERSON!
So sad
I can’t believe that there’s parents still stuck in the prehistoric era. Please for those that are parents we are suppose to take our child under our wngs and protect them not rejecting what their sexual preferences are. I dont give a 3fucks what churches have to say look at those fucking pastors ,priests raping kids but yea they think thats ok fuck religion. And yes im a father im gay proud of it love my 15 yr old daughter i will give my support, my life for her no matter her preferences, believe, her defects. I will give my life for her. All i have to say its. PARENTS PLEASE CHILDS ARE PART OF YOU LOVE THEM NO MATTER WHAT. HUG UR CHILD AND SAY U LOVE THEM FIGHT WITH UR CHILD AGAINST STUPIDITY BE UR CHILD ARMOUR. LETS PUT A STOP TO IGNORANCE. LETS EDUCATE OTHERS.
P.S
SORRY FOR MY BAD ENGLISH
So sad
This is so sad and I can say that I have never understood when someone says I’m in the wrong body but I try not to judge or voice my ignorant(not undunderstanding) opinion on the subject but the sadness I feel isn’t just for her it’s for the people that she left behind knowing that they cared. It seems like she gave this a lot of thought and I can never understand suicide but I wish she would have known the love of her parents under all the disappointment a parent can’t help but love their child. Rest in peace
I’m not transgendered, so I won’t assume that I understand what she felt like, but I do understand the religious components that lead to this tragedy.
My family is Jehovah’s Witness, my grandfather being an elder. Growing up in such a strict, rural, West Virginian family with such strong beliefs against who I was nearly led me to similar actions. Like her, I was taken to Christian therapists as a “non-biased” third party who only parroted the beliefs of my family.
The worst part was knowing that if I didn’t change, I would be disfellowshipped(the equivalent to excommunication in Mormonism). It breeded a lot of self-hatred, and death seemed like a viable option. I was lucky to have great friends who supported me and accepted me for who I am.
This story is extremely saddening. And I truly hope that she is at peace now. I hope this shines a light on how things need to change. I will never say that good can come from this, because nothing good comes from the death of a child. But the message this young woman left us with is one that needs not be forgotten. Something needs to change so that something like this never happens again.
HE WANTED TO MARTYR HIMSELF A POINT LOST ON MOST HERE
HE WENT OUT IN A BLAZE OF GLORY SAD THING IS SOCIETY THAT REQUIRED HIM TO FIT INTO GENDER SPECIFIC ACTIVITIES THAT HE WAS DISINTERESTED IN
SHAME ON HIS PARENTS FOR MOT ENCOURAGING HIM TO FIND HIS OWN INTERESTS
I SUPPORT PARENTS SURGERY IS SELF INDULGENT. WE ALL HAVE STRUGGLES. ITS THEIR CHOICE TO BE FUNDAMENTALIST AND TO RAISE A CHILD IN THEIR IMAGE.
THE REAL FAULT LIES WITH THE THERAPISTS NO MATTER IF THEY WERE CHRISTIANS THEY WERE RESPONSIBLE TO PROVIDE COPING MECHANISMS AND NOT SHAME THE BOY.
IN CONCLUSION PARENTS HAVE RESOURCES. THEY CLEARLY WANTED TO FORCE HIM NOT ACCEPT AS JESUS WOULD. WE ALL NEED LOVE TO GIVE AND RECEIVE THAT’S THEE POINT HE MARTYRED HIMSELF TO PROVE. I HOPE IT’S NOT A LOST POINT ON ALL OF US RIP NOW AT LEAST ONE GET YOU
Sooo because you couldn’t get what you wanted you killed yourself ? Thats a selfish act
there is a lot of things i want in life i may or may not get but im not killing myself over that .
I have transgender friends who didnt have the support they wanted and needed but you know what they saved up there own cash and got what they needed and look great
Dave,
You stated in you post that u were never “brave enough” to do what she did. Suicide is not a “brave” action…but one of cowardice. I feel terrible that she would have to resort to such extreme measures(if in fact it was on purpose) to find relief from her pain, but in reality suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. In this day and age there are multiple places one can go to to find help, understanding and sympathy for what someone has to endure….including this site for those old enough to belong. Suppose u had been “brave enough” to do what she did…..where would u be now? Being truly brave is accepting what life hands you and making something worthwhile out of it. I taunt middle school age children for many years and that age group experiences many conflicting emotions because of the hormonal changes taking place in their bodies, but I always stressed that it is a temporary situation that will change and many times for the better. Again I feel horrible for this young person, but to post statements that you were never brave enough to do the same is very irresponsible.
Pageboy50: thanks for your comment but “brave” in the way that it takes guts to do that. I wanted to to do it as a kid, but was not game enough.
Leelah,
I hope your are in a better place than you were on this earth. RELIGION is so fucked up and so are the bible thumpers who fail to recognize boys and girls in your situation. Rest in Peace!!!
I feel bad for Joshua. It’s to bad he didn’t get the help he needed in life.
As for Miles above…I find it amusing you want a planet free of judgment then in the next sentence you judge people of faith and religion. That says so much.
To any and all those who say suicide is a “selfish act”, I say “FUCK YOU! and all of your self righteous attitudes” The only selfish actions are the ones you have committed. Where were you when the person was alive? Had you been there to reach out to that person, talk with him, offer some understanding, he probably wouldn’t have felt all alone. That noone cared whether he lived or died.
The only real “selfish act” is the one committed by the asshole who claims it was a selfish act.
Lazer, RIP
I feel for this kid. Isolation and loneliness lead to despair and once that’s got it’s hook in you it’s nearly impossible to find a way out of the darkness.
As adults we tend to forget just how strongly young people feel emotions. Kind of like how the perspective of how time passes changes for us. I remember summers used to last SO long as a kid and now here in the later part of life it passes by in the blink of an eye.
This poor kids world was filled with so much negativity that she just couldn’t envision a day when she might actually be happy and loved. Who knows, maybe she was a bit prescient and saw down her path that she wouldn’t be loved like she wanted and that was too much for her to bear. It’s just too bad she couldn’t find hope for a better day and felt her only option against a lifetime of loneliness was to end it now rather than suffer longer.
If you think about it from her perspective, with 99% of the people she came across openly hating on her, her life here was pretty much hell on earth. It makes me sad that as open and loving as she was that she just never found a connection that made her want to stay.
I just hope that her parents learn from this.
George–you are a complete idiot–people have no say over the way they are born, but they do have say over the way they react to what their children or other loved ones are going through or feeling–they pushed religion down his throat as a cure for his transgender feelings–didn’t help, did it–it just pushed him over the edge–so very sad–rip Leelah Alcorn
Hey josh…… I will see you up there when my time is up bro 🙂
Sorry you had SUPER fucked up ignorant parents.
It happens
God bless your soul joshua 🙂
When an activist group wants to tell a story they will do whatever they can to get a Meme out in the public. Remember the movie Wag the Dog? That’s what this fake suicide note is. I’m not surprised so many fell for it hook line and sinker..because it fits the idea that people WANT to hear. ReRead the suicide note and ask yourself if this was written by a 17 year old? Of course it wasn’t. How many 17 year olds use the word “Gist”?
I’m not advocating mistreatment of children having trouble with their identity, but to abuse this real problem by creating a FAKE suicide note is abusive of those with an agenda.
Fynn McKool: on what planet do you live on? Haven’t you hear this in the news? It is on ALLLLL gay news and even regular news. Even went on local news in Montreal. It is real.
So sad that parents would pick religion and faith over their own child. So the verses that says “Love eachother” meant nothing to them that they couldn’t accept and love their daughter? Smh, the fears of being ridiculed by others caused her parents to turn their backs and now they lost a child because of it. Was it really worth it?
Such a tragedy. Fuck all you who have no compassion for the life she had to live!!!!
There is scientifically no such thing add a gender misalignment. You can be male or female, even a hermaphrodite is either xx or xy. This is a psychological issue and because it is being treated otherwise, these people aren’t getting the psychological help they need. The suicide rate is though the roof, not because of God, because they have an untested mental illness. If we treated other mental illness like this…if wait
Blog,
Thank god you weren’t “game enough” to do it….if u weren’t around today we most likely wouldn’t have this great site to be a part of and learn from. In this day and age there is really no excuse for not finding the help and compassion one needs. Again, I thank god you are still here, keep up the good work!
Pete….one question: where were you when this young man needed help? Yeah…it is easy to blame others for one’s short comings but the reality of it is that each of us is responsible for our own well being. NO ONE can bring you happiness or satisfaction if we are not happy with ourselves and this young man was truly not happy with himself. True happiness and satisfaction comes from helping others. Brain Science has been proven that the brain releases hormones that bring happiness and satisfaction when we are thinking of others and not ourselves. The gay community is rift with guys who are self centered only thinking of themselves and the result is much dissatisfaction and loneliness.
To all the ignorant people saying his suicide was selfish…. That is the stupidest thing anyone can say about suicide. They were clearly unloved by the people he loved more than anything for being nothing more than themselves. Some people can’t cope with it. While some of us have internalize the hate and have our own mental issues due to familial rejections, others can’t handle it. With good enough reason. Some people have literally no one in their lives to turn to. Hotlines aren’t exactly the most helpful. Hearing a stranger tell you “It gets better” isn’t the encouragement people want or need. Sometimes they need to be loved.
“My death needs to mean something.”
Because his life didn’t mean a thing.
The pain is real. She was not a mistake. Her therapy points are valid,waiting makes it more difficult. Parents should not dismiss a teens thoughts and wishes because of a chronological age. To the so-called Christians talked ng trash about her, Jesus will be bitchslapping your ass and expect some accurate and fitting divine retribution to smack your self fucking righteous ass down a few notches. Moderate this if you want. But to do so for content while show in fists up asses on every page will get me to cancel my membership and start a backlash.
Fynn McKool, First of all, I AGREE WITH YOU 100%. A 17 year old does not compose all of this as written…. I attribute this to more of THE MEDIA and Misguided Gay Activists attempting promote their own personal agendas! (Oh, by the way, I know about what we must deal with as teenagers, both gay or whatever) Those that commit suicide primarily do not really know the consequensces of their actions and what they will have on those left behind… They just as anybody else do not really 100% know what happens to us in the afterlife. Being Gay, Transgender, etc. is not different than being Racially discriminated against as well as those shunned due to their Religious beliefs. When the demise of the sad human being commit suicide, especially at such young ages, do so because of the “glorification” of those whom I name above….The ones at fault are not their parents or relatives, but as I have already stated, THE MEDIA, AND ACTIVISTS PROMOTING THEIR OWN AGENDAS! In closing, please read this carefully, WHY IS IT NOT HIGHLY PRESENTED TO ALL, SITUATIONS AND CONFESSIONS OF THOSE MILLIONS WHOM HAVE SURVIVED THAT DID NOT TAKE THEIR OWN LIFE THROUGH THE CENTURIES??????????
You know i feel the same way she felt. My parents(father) and I’m pretty sure my stepmother is in his ears are pushing me towards suicide. They are religious and they don’t understand how much stress they put and how much it is to be GAY and live in this society. Over the summer I finally balled up some courage to say something and ever since its been disaster. I’ve been putting up with everything for the last 6 months bu t today everything just wore on me, I can’t take it anymore. Every possible feeling of hurting myself is running through my head and all i can do is sit here and cry. Parents this is not a disease we were created like this in God’s likeness and image. Its your job to make sure they have a safe haven if anything and not to tear then down every time you get a chance and make us feel like something is wrong with us. This story just touch me and i realized how much we have in common R.I.P Brave Soul.
It’s truly sad that society and all it’s stupid rules are less tolerant of those who are different. I will never understand how a gay person can hate someone of the LGBT community. I get hated on a lot myself because I only dated soft fems and transgenders. so I understand her struggle RIP dear!!!!!
Now that we have heard this sad news, What are we going to do about it? We can blog our debates about who was at fault or if it was selfish, cowardly, or brave until next year or we can start by awareness. Google & learn facts about transgender. Get to know a transgender if you can. Share with your families & about acceptance & love for mankind. You can do this without outing yourself or anyone.
T-women/men, I know your life is private but, Leelah & other transgender children need your voice. We need more positive blogs or information to help our children understand the struggle & that they are not alone.
First of all:
Blog/Dave, if possible please reach out to Ethan, his note didnt sound too encouraging.
Second:
Is it suicide if a car hits you?
I grew up in a small town in northern Michigan and things were rough. I attempted suicide once. Thankfully I lived through the experto grow and be the man I am today. Suicide is indead a cowardly act. Its the worst way out. Life is about the good and the bad.
Kevin, a kid doesn’t know what u know now!
The national suicide prevention hotline is 1-800-273-TALK. As a licensed medical professional I am saddened that this was not included in the article for informational purposes. I work with people that are high risk for suicide and there is a way out that doesn’t end this way. It is truly sad for me to hear this person is from my state and no one was there to let her know that someone does care and there is help that doesn’t come from a judgemental perspective. No matter what ones familial views are we all have a right to exist, period point blank. To the reader that commented above “I’ll be seeing you soon” I beg you to please call the number listed before you make any harsh decisions or actions. Someone cares.
Rest in peace sweet princess and may you soar with the angels~
I hope his evil parents read his note, and his evil church and his evil preacher, and I hope they realize how many people now all over the world reading this are going to realize these people are the pond scum that they are. It actually is almost never too late — a person I know transitioned at age 64.
For those who say this was selfish,…your the problem, this young lady was hurt, beyond, repair, its people like you that judge and not accept, that push people to this, the devil is your father!..may this child rest in peace, he is now in the unconditional love of his creatir!…soooo sad!
Ethan, what you said bothers me, write to me I want to talk to you and be your friend!! Dennis
I read this story and cried. I felt so bad for this young girl, and the pain she had in her life! Then I read the comments on this site, and I cried even harder! How can we as gay people be so cold and narrow minded? One said she wasn’t trans, but just a sissy acting guy! Sounds like the bull I used to hear when I first came out as gay. Your not gay your just confused and going through a phase! This phase has lasted 40 some odd years! Others say it’s the girls fault that she killed herself, not her parents, not the counselors that where more interested in pushing religious text down her throat than helping her with the darkness she was forced to live in. I once went to a religious counselor that was so obsessed about my being gay that couldn’t help with my core issue. Once I started seeing a counselor that wasn’t hung up on religion I found out all I needed to get better was to get out of the house, find a job and have time for me. My problem wasn’t anything to do with being gay! Then there are those of you that say this young girl was mentally ill! They used to say gays where mentally ill. Turns out they where wrong, and guess what? Your wrong about trans people being mentally ill! I have the pleasure of knowing some wonderful people that happen to be trans, and they are very good and loving people! With the fight, and plight gays have came through you’d think we’d be more supportive of our trans brothers and sisters! I am on the board of the local Pride group and can’t get trans people to get involved, and after reading some of these responses, I can almost understand why! There don’t seem like there is much more understanding and support from our community than from the straight community. God bless you and keep you in his care Leelah.
It is far too easy for anyone to say suicide is a selfish act. I have learned the hard way not to judge. We gay people are judged enough as it is.
Also, when I heard Leelah’s story I felt sad. I also felt sad for the driver of the vehicle that hit her. I know someone who killed another person who chose this way to commit suicide and to this day she is so haunted by that. Very tragic all around.
I feel sorry for everyone, even the parents. They were not being horrible parents, but rather making decisions based on their beliefs. Their child was very young and wanted a lot. It is not something most parents would ever imagine, so give them some slack. They are suffering too. I also wish this young person could have just dealt with the situation as it was, and looked forward to leaving the nest and becoming who she thought she was. Hey, we all had to live under our parents’ rules. I know this is deeper than that, but it is such a waste to kill yourself to spite your parents. And, I too feel bad for the poor person she chose to step out in front of on the highway. They may never be the same. Sad all around.
We need to pray for his soul . He took what was not his to take .